Thursday, December 16, 2010

Moving on...finally

I'm not very good about posting regular on this blog. It is hard to find a moment to myself these days. I swear I have developed ADD as an adult and can't seem to focus these days. I think number of years working with computers kinda makes you a computer. It's lends itself to giving you the ability to multi-task with your brain but I'm thinking I'm not as an effective as a computer. I thought it would get better with moving on to a new job( hahaha..yes adding to the list of the many jobs I have had) but still finding the ability to focus on one task at a time is just..uh difficult right now.

I finally got out the worst situation I have been in career wise and that is no exaggeration. Being free of the situation has allowed me to gain perspective and left me with a bitterness I'm not very happy about. It is always hard when someone breaks a promise but even more difficult when there is money involved. I know I'm never going to see the money owed to me but to call me about my fn phone you paid for two years ago is just ridiculous. The old co-worker calling about it couldn't even make it through the call without apologizing multiple times. We ended with the call saying let's just pretend I returned the phone and thanks for all the hard work you did. And short-term memory wench...did you forget my phone was paid to reimburse me for my huge phone bill while traveling? Did you forget about the 10 day trip from hell on the west coast with not even a thank you? Did you forget about those times I dropped everything including personal commitments to get the job done so not to let down my co-workers?  Did you forget how you took advantage of my work ethic over and over again?

Okay, my vent is over. Holding on to bitterness is not healthy. I think I'm in the sadness stage now realizing that I stayed too long in a very toxic situation. You could say it was character building for awhile but somehow I let it go on too long. For those of you who know me, this is not my usual MO. It actually rocked my confidence in the work world which is very unusual for me.

So now, I'm going to focus on moving forward. I have been in the new job a couple of months and so far so good. No work place is perfect but I am definitely feeling more comfortable in the new environment. I'm starting to dig that people are looking to me for direction. I'm also so grateful for being around nice people. I know that shouldn't be a lot to ask for but I am surprised how some work places just don't foster that type of atmosphere. So I think career wise I'm in a good place and hope it stays that way for awhile. 

"I have a theory about the human mind. A brain is a lot like a computer. It will only take so many facts, and then it will go on overload and blow up. "  -- Erma Bombeck